title: *JON* -001.jpg) I MISS THIS MATREP!Life doesnt seem to be fair, at times. More to bad and cruelty. Its ok, so long as im a human, i'll be strong and try to endure it. God have his reasons in making things this way... :) In this kind of situation, i seriously dont feel like going out. To face the public. Until everything is cured. Bestfriend said; 'The only reason God dont let it cure faster is so He can give you something better' Ive been keeping this words in my mind. And trusting them also. At least, it makes me think on a brighter side. *winks* Went to one of cousin's wedding event yesterday.. After so long, we get to meet each other. Its really an honour to attend her wedding. I love cousins. Thats the main reason why i attend my cousins wedding no matter how busy i can be. She is super GORGEOUS! With those beautiful wedding outfits. The one that i like most is the PINK gown. (Pinky girls will like it though) The thing that i wont forget is, most people said that my cousin and i look the same. Oh my! That really touches me. Isnt it great if cousins look the same?? Its like the blood and relation is all there! aha. ;D Even, her hubby said the same when i salam and bid goodbye. And of coz, she is way much more prettier than me.. bahaha! :D Im going back to TTSH tomorrow.. To get somethings settled. Will be busy i guess. Cikgu invite me to her chalet. But im not sure whether im able to attend or not. Ive got a lot of things to settle. 31st dec is really drawing near... And its like: OH-MY-GOD &&& YESSAHHHHH! |
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title: Humans and Behaviours  At times, i just don’t understand myself nor the surroundings. It makes me wonder why each time i see different and strange kinds of behaviours each day. Im not just referring to me, but the people around me as well. Who should i blame??? It won’t feel nice if i have to put that blame on them. Nor it won’t be fair if i put that blame on myself. Gahh! I will stop here. I won’t feel like elaborating more. Let’s see how things go each day...I will be going off to ECP for cycling session later on. With the 2nd Degree siblings. Not many will be tagging along later on. Hope it will still be a fun one though. And hope, nana kecoh will join us. I miss having a chat with you nana. I miss gerek-ing with you just like how we used to during the ‘anugerah’ times. Aha. Hope you will come.. *hopes* Aniways, hop to Bugis yesterday. As demanded by sis. I went to buy the pants which ive been eyeing for. I dieDIE wana wear it to ECP. So i bought one. A RED one. I swear, its super hot. Hahah! ;) I was actually dragging my feet there and paying up for the pants half heartedly. Now, i’ve always been considering when its comes to about spending money. Im somehow broke. Hehe. That also explains why i drag my feet down to Bugis. The initial plan is to have breakfast with Eza and asking Naufal to tag along. But since, Eza cant make it. I called it off as i’ve not yet arranged anything with Naufal. So my day was meant to be for sis. I miss my darling besteeS!! To the max! Haiyaya. I wana meet Eza. Have not met her for some time. Theres a lot that i wana hear from her. Theres a lot to be shared. Next, Lutfiah! Bah!We’ve not meet each other for decades?! Chey, what a lie. No but seriously, for super long MONTHS! And it somehow feel like years.... I miss this small girl. You know that thoughts of you is always in my mind though we’re far apart darl... My another, all time favourite matrep; Hadi. Ok, actually, he dislikes me calling him, MY MATREP. Sounds wrong. But who cares. I love bestfriend(S). We’ve yet to go to ECP. Just the two of us, on a very fine day.. Hmmm, i wonder when.. Sumer da ader budak masing2, jadi mcm susah lahh jugak.. knknkn? Hiaya! For my bestBest elder sis, Mai, i hope she’s doing good. I’ve to admit that i miss her presence. When we used to have serious talk. The advices she gave. Aha. Hope that im able to meet her one fine day too... For Naufal, aha, that busy guy.... Miss him though ive just heard from him recently. I wana go to the Library to borrow a Malay novel... Anyone?? |
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title: Back to Blogging 18 december marks my last day of my second attachment.. A big BIG YAY for me as i manage to pull through despite the sickness that i’m having. The wound that i had is still yet to be cured. Doctor said that its takes at least 2 weeks to recover. Aha. During my attachment, everyone noticed about it. Even the clerks and the patient’s relatives noticed about it. Some thought i fell and had some stitches. Hah. Some ask what i bang onto. The best answer that i gave to this group of sisters is: ‘ I was looking at this particular handsome guy and i got banged on the wall instead’. Hahaha. They were all laughing like hell in the tea room. P/s: Thats not true ok! Im just trying to pull their legs and besides, the answer that i gave to the rest are all the same. I felt so paisey and tired of answering the questions over and over again.. gahh! What to do... haiyaya. On the happier note, i’m really happy right now as my attachment is now over. I have 2 weeks of holidays which i gonna spent wisely. I will try to spent this 2weeks with my loved ones. For all the making ups. Hah hah! ;D 5th December; Balik kampong........ Back to Muar. Its just a short stay. Had to go back to attend cousin’s wedding. I was feeling half hearted to leave Singapore actually. Though its only for a while. I find it really hard to leave. I gave 6th December . L hmmm.... Hope they wasn’t angry with me coz i wasn’t able to attend that event. I love them still. Ok back to the story.. Once i entered Malaysia, i became sexcited!!!!!!!!!! Its been so long that i’ve visit the kampong... wakaka. Camwhored quite a lot. With sis expecially. Besides that, i am actually really happy to meet my cousins in Malaysia.. All have grown up. And cousin brother say that im getting fatter. Haiyyakkk! :X I know... He shouldn’t have said that at the first place. I stress ya’know brother??! Aha. Its ok, i know im fat..wakaka. Im also happy that my favourite cousin brother came back from his campus. It’s been so long that we’ve interact with each other. I could still remember the old time when i was small. We like teasing each other. Until on that very day itself at kampong, i still tease him, asking him to get married fast and im sure to attend his ceremony. Aha. I find the ceremony in Melaka (girl’s side) interesting. Thaeres a number of things that i learned. Its all thorugh the effort of hearing people’s discussion. From there, i know how wedding ceremony is done in the kampong days.. Its fun actually. But only the setting is different. No DANCEFLOOR. Like we used to have in marriages in my dad’s side. Bahhahaha. ;D I would really wana go back to Muar, but sadly, nobody over there is free to fetch me from Singapore. If only i know how to get there on my own.. Hmmmm........ 12th December; It’s my ALL TIME FAVOURITE MATREP’s BIRTHDAY! His mom informed me few days before about wanting to give him a surprise on his birthday. Tadadada. We went out on his birthday... So the people who went are basically my common cousins and sis. The complete-5 were there. Happy much! But the two guys went early. Sad ya’know! One got work, the other went clubbing! Haiyaya. But first, aunt treated all of us to Sakura. Cousin brother’s working place. But apparently, he wasn’t there. He got something on at other Sakura outlets. Cant get to see him, nor getting a discount. Haiyak! :X So after all the eating, the two guys left.. yadayada. I was preity sad though. An got work. So i understand his case. But boboy went of early because of his friends....... When we actually plan to buy a cake for ameir with the presence of boboy. So the cake plan thingy is also gone. But the next best part is.... BOWLING! After been wanting to play bowling for so long, its a finally!!!! I swear, i was like one paisey human over there. Rolling balls like one idiot. But score nothing at the first game. Haiyak! But soon, my skills get better and better. For the second game, i somehow become a pro already.. haahaa. Came to this one funny part. *that one inside joke* I don’t feel like revealing it. Hahahaha. After bowling, we hang around at ehub. Camwhored like nobody business. With all the decos and posters, we all go C-R-A-Z-Y! I really had so much of an UNEXPLAINABLE FUN! ;) Back to Kampong photos will be uploaded in facebook. So here are the 12th December outing photos..  My All Time Favourite Matrep*AMEIR*                                          Tags and Linking will be replied and done soon! ;D |
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title: HIATUS .jpg) Hey ya! Im sorry for being missing for some time. I know that ive not been updating my blog. Its just that i dont have time to talk about all the happening stuffs in my life. Im currently busy. With attachment and all. Will try to update when i have the time. Maybe during the weekends. Tags will be reply soon. Im really sorry... Till here. Take care lovelies! :) |
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title: Tags replied. Sorry for the late reply of tags.
♥ fyaa: Waalaikumsalam... Its ok syg. U know det u said im a strong girl before right. That makes me go thru all this as smn strong. Its ok, u dont have to apologies. Fad pon fhm, fya bz.. hee. Fad sihat, alhamdulillah... Fad pon rindu fya... Fya, asl fya delete account fb? Fya nyer blog letak tagboard cn? Please? Jadi fad nk bilang or ckp pape kat fya pon senang.. I know ur phone having probs. Jadi susah nk contactkn. So for the time being, get thru me at my blog ok.. Takecare darling.. I love you so much! :) ♥ atiqa: Its ok my dear.. Mayb when we mit up or what u cn share about it with me ok.. My pleasure, love. ;) ♥ izzah: Prettylady, sorry ive uploaded that post one day later. Too packed with some stuffs so its being delayed. Hope you like it.. And i love you like heaven, sister! =D |
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title: She turns 18. ;)  Dearest darling, Happy Gorgeously 18th Birthday! May you be blessed with health, wealth and happiness always.. All the best for your future endeavours.. Last long with boyfie. Be happy and bubbly as always.. Seeing you happy and enjoy every bit of your life makes me happy too.... And as you know, i will always love you, my sister,my bestfriend, my twin, my everything, from the bottom of my heart.. Takecare prettyhead. I-Love-You! :) Labels: birthday girl |
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title: Hidden tears, Soundless screams. I seriously cant stand this anymore.. All this while, most people said that im a strong girl.. But then i realise that all those are not true. Im so weak. Too sensitive and too emotional. Being in this state really pulls me down. Those words and those thoughts. Seeing us drifted apart. Not like other people out there. The strong bonds that i see everywhere. All you people said is that ive changed. Im rude. But have you people even bother asking me how am i, how things is going on in my life. What my problems are. Why ive been keeping quiet at times. Why i stayed away from some of you. You didnt, dont you? All i need are your understanding, trust, love and concern. Seriously, im lacking of those. And i need it from no one else, but only from you people. My social life seems to be a problem to you also. Why?? I have the rights to mix around with anybody. Whoever i like. I know my limits. I set my boundaries. Consider myself a spoilt kid? Up to you. Yeah, im spoilt because of this small things that i lack. Im a human too. Ive got my feelings. My flaws. Speaking about flaws, who doesnt have any right? Everybody does. Its either you're able to notice it or not. You highlighted each and every flaws that i had. But did you even bother to ask me why im becoming like this? All you know is to listen to people whom i doubt know me well enough. Listen to their assumptions. And then again, put all the blame on me. I hate it you know. Especially when we had small arguments. Yes, im rude at times. I answered back when im not satisfied. Ego.... I know. I just have to stand up for my own right. But to be honest with you, i would never wana have an argument with you. Never. Each time we argued, im sure to teared. You never know about all this. My hidden tears, those soundless screams...You'll never know......... :'(
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title:  Ive been missing for quite sometime. I know. :)During that MIA period, a lot of things happen.. Now here it goes... My uncle... He just left the whole family of us recently. Not for a while but forever. Its a preity shocking news when i know that he's no more. He left, making most of us regret. Regret about what we did in the past. I could still remember what he did 1week before he left. When i first came to my aunts house, i notice that he is so different. Totally different. When i was eating, he came up to me and said 'Sonia' and smiled. I just smiled back without saying a single thing. In the evening, he decided to leave aunt's house. This time round, at the corridor, he was standing, he faced all of us and said, "Goodbye everybody'. And again, i just smiled at him. When the news that he is gone, came right into my ears, i regretted. I regret for not going up to him the other day.. To kiss his hand and wave back at him when he bid goodbye.. Seriously, what a regret. Now, the only thing that is left are memories... Our prayers will always be with you, my dear uncle... Boboy.. Recently, a few things cock-ed up between us also.. haha! Misunderstanding. I just dont understand why he like to disturb me till i take all his jokes seriously. The latest 'conflict' that happen is actually preity bad and is not what i expected. I just cant afford to stay away from him, each time when we met somewhere. Usually, we will joke around and all.. But the other day, for once in my lifetime. We became complete STRANGERS. And when i say strangers, we seriously did not bother to talk or even smile to one another. haha! Sad ya'know. But recently, everything went back as per normal.. He started up with the conversation first.. ;) What ima said is true... He wont stay away from me for so long.... hehe. And i love this guy so much.. Same goes to the rest of my cousin... hak! ;D School.. Everthing went back as per normal. No more misunderstanding between my girls. To see them back together again, is such an awesome feeling.. All settled. And i seriously like what happen yesterday. So much fun. Laughters. Besides a boring lecture, the practical was so much fun... Lots of jokes were cracked. Unexpected wildness when we get to excited about all the pregnancy learnings and all. So much fun!!! And i love all my girls so much from the bottom of my Hypothalamus...... ;) Im off. Will be going to airport to meet the babes to study later on.. Shall update again when i have the time.. hehe. TKCR LOVELIES. LOVE YOU! :D If i have to change, i will.... But i guess i cant change my own social life.... Being friendly is soooooo me.... So i cant promise you to change that part of myself... |
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title: BACK TO SCHOOL Today, a new semester, a new start in the Nursing Life....
Basically, im just tooooo excited to go to school.. To get busy again with school life, to mingle with my beloved darlings and to make new friends.. Went out of the house at 6.50 and headed to school straight. My journey to school is a pleasant one with Izfarhan along. Boooo! At least i dont feel lonely though. Bump into him in the bus on the way to mrt. Headed to our school together but then i alighted at dove, and An at clementi... So, in school, i had a new tutorial mate, Hadi. And i guess he's together in my group for practical also. Hadi, reminds me so much of my own bestfriend, Hadi. Each time when i look at this Hadi, my minds will go far away thinking of my own Hadi. I hope that he will always be doing fine though we're far apart... *misses* Niways, i just cant wait to get started up with all the new and interesting modules for this semester... From now on, i will have to put in more effort as some of the modules seem to be preity tough... For the sports and wellness programme, ive basically chose the International Games. With that, i will have to cover two sports together. That is the ultimate frisby and touch rougby.. Im really looking forward for this lesson too.. :) Alright thats about it.. I shall update again when i have the time.. Till here, toodlessss! ;) |
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title: thankyou dearest Boooo!!!!!!
Heartache again... Thanks ehkk to you.... Dont worry, i wont hate you.. In fact i should thankyou because you make me realise my mistake.. Ive learnt my lesson... Lesson learnt: Never trust someone's words easily, because it might never be true.. And its ok to love anybody out there.. But if you have started to love someone out there, dont love him deeply because you might get hurt deeply in return... Labels: :'( |
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